Thursday, February 23, 2006

I just dont get IT, really dont.
To specify, i dont get THEM.
Those darn teachers.
They're TOTALLY pissing me off ):
The teachers are like HELL.
Just WHAT IS WRONG WITH THAT
FUGGLY Ms I-seem-to-control-the-school ANG?
She is damnit getting onto my nerves. -rattles wtf
Rarhss!
And that f-ing maharojak, f-ing frowny choo-bitch,
acetera, acetera.
GAWD.
What is today?
Asshole day?
(oh, c'mon, gimme a break)
UGH.
And like, what's the date today?
MAN.
FireDrill?
A Math test?
Seeing Mrs Lee?
F-ing Cramps?
Getting scolded for laughing?
For wanting to be research-helpful?
Just Define Asshole-ultimate-Eff'er-Day please.
And to top it off,
it's the twenty-third, just Great. ):

And things abt the Juggahoe & Juggalo in the family,
i wish NOT to talk about.
HYUKS, I've been TOTALLY DRAINED OUT
by the weekly tests and so on i tell you.
Emotionally, Physically & mentally.
Fcuk, where were you when i needed you?
Oh good gracious Father/pal/guardian-angel-worthy,
please let me draw strength from you.
Seriously, Strike in me a flame Lord.

Im feeling suicidal.
Hooohaaa(:
(Wow, clap for me man)
And thanks for TRYING to help, but, it's NOT
working.
uhuh, not even a bit.
NOBODY, just nobody can figure out whattheheck's
going on my parent's TWISTED MIND.
they're lunatics, i so do believe;)
yadaaaa yaddaaa.
im Weird and Random.
(I even hung myself upside down to shit)
More Hell days to come, More tests & More probation going on.
They're spying w their ~~little~~ GAWD-DAMN BLOODY WATCHFUL eyes.

I so hate life.
But like what fibe said,
"Take this as an advantage,
Not to take all these shit as a setback but
a stepping stone for advancement(:
And not like others who'll treat this as a pebble
that'll trip you to the road of danger."
-of course i brushed up her words a little, but yeah,
the meaning's carried forth;)
I Like That.
(thanks buddy)
You're My Motivational Duster (Lol),
You erase my bad and dabble it with
Love, Joy, Faith, Encouragement & wisdom(:
But, i dont think i can account to taking any of that crap
into my advantage? There's like absolute NOTHING for me to advance on?
Lol.

But still,
Thank god for wonderful you(:
We're inseperable esp from My rival-of-love.
hahah. ( Secret btwn Me&You, heehee)

Alright, it's time to get back in line,
I am utterly far off from Average-Expectancy.
Im like Near Death, Oops.
( I did it again, haha)

I dont think i'll ever be as happy,
ever be as crazy,
ever be as blimey.
All i can say is that,
They've killed my being.
Im no longer who i used to be,
im No longer Me. ):
All i can do now is to tryta re-shape myself.
Hopefully, for the better.

There's upcoming tests next week.
And i believe,
Double trouble ( No twice fun)
is bound to happen.
I can sense it.
My fifth sense tells me so.

Holocaust proj, Green Proj, tests, etc.
Damn.
But at least, im done with 8, so it's left with 2/3?
The dreadful results?
More Abusive techniques?
Torture chamber?
24/7 Lock-up?
More Unhappiness?
More EXTREME feelings?
Quite Frankly, Very Frankly actually,
Im REALLY afraid im going to breakdown
cause' im not strong-willed 'nuff.
Dangg,
i cant handle all this by myself.
JUST STAB ME NOW LA. -snorts

Things have been ~~pretty~~ extremely dicey here,

I-N-E-E-D-Y-O-U.

Love,
Me.

* i know you Do care. and i hope you Do know.
STAY WITH ME.
No matter what, i plead.
Im just so NOT myself at the moment.
Being A Mean Bitch, if you might call it.

2/23/2006 09:42:00 PM